I wish for...

[EDIT// Nov 29 10:56 PM]

( Makeup Vomit )

~Amy [is going to start singing Christmas carols soon]

I ♥ Dancing.

Not that I'm amazing at it. In fact, I kind of lack the use of some joints and rhythm at times. Who cares? Sometimes, nothing brightens my mood then dancing away in the shower xD I really want to be able to do that WITH my friends. Yes, I might look like a doofus, but I have fun doing it =) Plus, I'm confident that my friends will laugh at me and go "your ridiculous and crazy.... but I love it." Too bad my brain is usually telling me they are going "omg, I don't want to be seen with you, how embarrassing", "wtf is she doing", and "lmao! she's looks ridiculous." So maybe I'm not that confident... or I still lack that self-confidence. Either way, it brightened my day (plus it actually helps me feel less sick/takes my mind off it I guess).

To be young! =D

-Amy [loves you all!]

I can feel my photography senses tingling. HALLELUJAH! It's back! =D In full force too, it feels like. I'm so happy, and praying I do not lose this feeling tomorrow so I can get my butt out and take some photos. I haven't touched my SLR in close to a year, it's embarrassing. I'm feeling all the "I want to be a photographer!" thing come back too.

How long has it been since I felt inspired? All the images in my head are fashion/people shots nonetheless, and it's what I'm worse at... but you know what, whatever. I'm going to have fun with it, even if it's just myself!

I love this =)

I'm in a really good mood today, and I love it =) I wish this was me all the time. Gosh, I love music and dancing.

I cut my hair short! =D I really like it.

I'm not perfect, nobody is. I still bitch and complain about how I look, and who I am. But really, I'm okay most of the time. In fact, I'm good looking if I tried. I'm a damn good friend too once you know me well enough. Yes there are flaws you have to accept and put up with, but I'm not a bad person. In fact, I think I'm pretty good. I'm grateful to those that have stuck by me even at my worst. I'm grateful for this summer, because I used it to pick myself back up. I'm not an optimist though, so my pessimistic outlook remains... but I can live with myself on most days.

I also want to say a big fuck you to people that have hurt me, abandoned me, and don't like me. There are worst people out there to hate, and I have not done anything I think is morally unacceptable. It all still hurts, but you know what, it's your damn lost. And I will, with all my willpower and time, get over it. I will not let these people hurt me anymore and I will finally say, I'm better off without you guys. Because if you could just throw away everything we had, or not have the guts to even try to get it back, then your not worth it. I did my part. Those that are with me are worth it. And yes, I might not have as many friends as you, but you know what? Each and every one of them care more about me then all your little friends combined. =)

I hope I keep this attitude up.

I wish for...

¤ Fahrenheit stuff! Ask someone if I already have the thing or not? Zomg they have a new album coming out
¤ Clothes!!
¤ Gift cards (Garage, Chapters, Ron Jon's?, grocery store.. lmao)
¤ Mangas (have fun figuring out what I have..? lol)
¤ Jewelry (note: simple is the way to go)
¤ SingStar vol 2. with the mics
¤ Nikon dSLR accessories (35mm polarizing filter? xD)
¤ Lindt Chocolate
¤ Something to decorate my walls?
¤ Take me out somewhere cool?
¤ Chapstick...? lmao
¤ Scarf
¤ Mittens!
¤ New GG game (Never Have I Ever)
¤ Flood lights

For Kicks

¤ To be thinner
¤ To be smarter
¤ A Talent!
¤ To meet Arron
¤ Money Tree
¤ Sony Ericsson 350
¤ A new heart...
¤ Heck a new personality!
¤ Make Resistance 2 have a 2 person campaign >.> lol

I'll... update when I think of more or something......

~Amy [is late in terms of Christmas T_T]

Stolen from amayasuki

( Movies! )

( How well do you know me? )

-Amy [is posting a short survey entry!]

Stolen from kuchren

1. It begins with a list of all 26 letters of the alphabet.
2. Comment with something for me to talk about that starts with one of those letters. Make me babble about anything -- TV shows, actors, actresses, food, idk, be creative. :D
3. One topic per letter -- it's like a claims list! I will cross off letters as topics appear.
4. I will post a new post talking about all 26 topics given to me!

A
B
C
D
E
F
G
H
I
J
K
L
M
N
O
P
Q
R
S
T
U
V
W
X
Y
Z

I know I've done this before... but I'm bored... >.> So....

Do you trust my taste in music? Pick 3 numbers between 1 and 2356 and I'll find the corresponding song in my collection playlist. I'll upload it for you (and everyone else reading this entry) to grab.[Optional: when you've gotten a song from me, go post this meme in yourown journal, so I can grab a random song from you.]

~Amy [needs a life]

Wow.. this song is so inspiring and along with the PV it's kind of ... heart-warming. xD I don't know... it tugged a little something inside.

Order Made - RADWIMPS

Translation credit to cnet128.

I think I must have been asked this once.
Before I was born, by someone, somewhere.
"Choose one: the past, or the future,
And I will allow you to see it.
Which will it be?
Which will it be?"

And I probably decided on the past.
So that, rather than just strong, I could become kind, become kind.
So that I could understand what memories are.

Next, that 'somebody' told me this.
"I'll give you arms and legs and mouths and ears and eyes,
Hearts and breasts and nostrils.
I'll give you two of each one.
Isn't that great?
Isn't that great?"

But then I made a request.
I said, I'd be fine with just one mouth.
So I wouldn't argue with myself;
So I could only kiss one person.

I want to forget.
But somehow, I can't.
What do you call this kind of feeling?

Looking a little disappointed,
The person continued with his explanation.
"The hearts are most important,
So I'll put one behind each of your breasts.
Isn't that great?
Isn't that great?"
　
But, once more, I had a request to make.
I'm awfully sorry, but to be honest,
I really don't need a heart on the right.
Sorry to keep troubling you like this.

It's so that when I find that one special person,
And hold her close to me for the first time,
Only then will I finally be able to feel
Two hearts beating, one on each side.

The left one mine, the right, yours.
The left one yours, the right, mine.
So that alone, I'll always be lacking something.
So that I won't be able to just go on living alone.

I want to forget.
But somehow, I can't.
What do you call this kind of feeling?

My chest is pounding,
Yet somehow it seems familiar.
What do you call this kind of feeling?

"Ah, that reminds me, there's one last thing.
Would you like us to add in tears as well?
You'd have no problems without them,
But some people find them annoying, so they opt out.
What would you like?
What would you like?"

In the end, I asked him to add them in.
So that, rather than just strong, I could become kind, become kind.
So I could understand what it means to hold something dear.

"Oh, while we're at it, the tears will need a flavour.
So I'd just like you to choose which one you'd prefer.
We have sour, salty, spicy, sweet.
You can choose whichever you like.
Which will you have?
Which will you have?"

Everything was put together just as requested,
So wipe those tears away and let me see your face.
Come on, show it to me with pride.

Thank you so much for everything.
Sorry to have caused you so much trouble.
But could I just ask one last thing?
"Have we met somewhere before?"

[彡VERB. n. (i) Arron Yan (ii) it's what who I do ;)]

[彡VERB. n. (i) Raymond Lam (ii) it's what who I do ;)]

Mwhahahaha!

( Hope everyone got terrific gifts... zomg pic spam under cut! )

Going to yum cha and then to my dads after. =) I hope all you guys have a great christmas!! Oh paramarsradio, got your card <3333

~Amy [wishes everyone a merry Christmas]

Just this once, I'm stealing Mi-chan's idea. xD;;;

Something That I Already Know
Backstreet Boys

Here we are, seven days
And seven nights of empty tries
This ritual's, habitual
But it's never gonna work this time

We're to the point of no return
And along the way the only thing we've learned
Is how to hurt each other

I'm looking back and wondering why
It took so long to realize
That nothing's changed, it never will
All these years of standing still
And still we stay in all this pain
And nothing's gonna make it go away

I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind baby you're not in it
And we're not what we used to be
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute to hear
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know

So save your voice
Don't waste your breath
Can't you see we're at the end
And this goodbye feels permanent
So wish me well, try to forget

And all the fights
And all the ways
We almost made it
But we never did
And it's finally come to this

We can not hide what we've become
So sick and tired of being numb
It's done, it's done
It's done

I don't wanna wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind baby you're not in it
And we're not what we used to be
No, you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't wanna wait another minute to hear
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know
I know, 'cause I know

~Amy

Would any of you like to do a survey for me? It's for my Psychology ISU and it's on communicating in a society with the topic of gossip.
It's going to be a in word document file and you can fill it out there.

Please respond to me by Tuesday since my report is due Wednesday. X_X It would be greatly appreciated. =) Just comment and let me know so I can send it to you. It woke take long, like 2-5 minutes. =D

Thanks guys~

~Amy

[mood | excited]

I Wish...

▪ ANYTHING FAHRENHEIT (except their first album but I do need their HK version I believe, except Around the World pictorial book, except the unoffical pictorial agenda thing)
           ▪ Their new Japanese CD album or photobook would be nice. =) Yesasia! Free shipping! *nods*
▪ Raymond Lam's debut CD
▪ Winter Clothes (Size M or L depending on size of it. Nothing that causes major static or pricky frabric)
▪ Fruits Basket wind chimes (except horse, mouse and cat)
▪ Mangas on my "To Buy" list (consult here)
▪ Any anime merchandise (as long as I like the anime)
▪ Jewelery (nothing expensive obviously, and a rule to follow by: I like simple and pretty -- and my ears aren't pierced and I don't like feet jewelery)
▪ A pretty (small or large) box to put notes and random "special" junk in
▪ Money/Gift Certificates
           ▪ Chapters gift cards
           ▪ Ron Jon gift cards! (is there such a thing?)
▪ Guava Scented Lotion (this doesn't exist... X_X)
▪ Ouran Artbook (I've only seen it once at one con... it was like $55 X_X)
▪ Pretty earmuffs or hat or another other garment used to cover your ears (that doesn't make me look retarded)
▪ Oncore Wireless Karaoke Set (it looks SO cool xD but so expensive X_X)

For Kicks:
▪ A new, working, smarter brain
▪ Time machine
▪ Money tree
▪ Special powers =D
▪ A bigger room
▪ Homework machine
▪ To meet Fahrenheit (Come to Toronto... please? T_T)
▪ Arron (better yet, Arron in a bow =3)

Online Stuff:
▪ Wallpapers in 1680 x 1050 (please? Those are lacking on the internet...)

~Amy [can't wait till christmas]

♪The clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
♪Everything that I hold in is everything I can't let go

♪We're to the point of no return and along the way the only thing we've learned is how to hurt each other
♪I'm looking back and wondering why it took so long to realize
♪All these years of standing still and still we stay, in all this pain, and nothing's going to make it go away
♪We're not what we used to be
♪All the fights and all the ways, we almost made it but we never did and it's finally come to this

♪Just when I can't take what she's done to me, shes comes to me and leads me back to paradise
♪I'm helpless when she smiles
♪Out of control but I can't let go
♪When she looks at me I gets so weak

♪I tell my heart but I can't seem to comprehend
♪It's time to accept it's the way things are, I wish I could but..
♪Like the tears that never hit the ground, like you're still here

♪I'm by your side when the whole world turns against you

♪The trouble is there's still a part of me that still can't let go of her memory
♪So every day I find a little something to remind me no matter how I try, I can't put the past behind

♪I won't tell nobody I'll just scream it in my mind
♪Nothing has to be so perfect
♪One day you're all alone and next you're crying on the phone

♪There come a day when you walk out of my dreams

♪I've been walking in a haze between the lines of reason, hiding from a ghost of yesterday, feels like I'm barely breathing
♪I wanna feel the rain again, I wanna feel the water on my skin and let it all just wash away in a downpour
♪I'm goin' crazy I can't stay here, I've gone completely numb, I just wanna need someone

♪I hear the sound of my own breathing, it makes me miss you more
♪I don't wanna see what we've become, the damage has all been done

♪Maybe I'm heading for a breakdown and maybe that's ok
♪Promise myself I wouldn't care, maybe you're making me a liar
♪I just look at you and there's no way out

~Amy [is in love with the Unbreakable and loves Backstreet Boys all over again]

I have every right to spam you guys with these. I haven't done them... for a while. Plus I'm like 99% done my lab so I am one happy child. =D (Even if its utter crap and I know I'll get butchered for bsing)

( Let the games begin.... )

~Amy [goes to sleep]

In celebration of Halloween....ish

You Are a Zombie

You're a pretty apathetic person, and you often feel like you're sleep walking through life. You don't necessarily have a case of the "blues", but you do have a case of the "blahs." It's hard for you to snap out of your boring every day routine. You're a bit burned out. The only thing you crave is the company of others. But you're not too nice to the people who do hang around you. Your greatest power: Your lack of a normal conscience Your greatest weakness: Your lack of most emotions You play well with: Aliens

Blahhhh *dies* xD It's not hard at all for me to snap out of my boring routine... I want to hang out way too often. xD I'm nice... *looks innocent* LOL Lack of emotions... that's rich.

What Your Halloween Habits Say About You

You're a friendly person, but not the life of the party. You like making someone else's day - and you'll dress up if you think of a really fun costume. You're weird. You're downright deviant. And you use dressing up in a costume as an excuse to act out. Your inner child is stubborn and a bit bossy. You truly fear the dark side of humanity. You are a true misanthrope. You're prone to be quite emotional and over dramatic. Deep down, you enjoy being scared out of your mind... even if you don't admit it. You are picky and high maintenance. If you wear a Halloween costume, it's only when you really feel like it. And it has to be perfect.

This is so true..... it's scary.

You Should Play the Saxophone

You are charismatic, friendly, and very uninhibited. You have a lot of personal expression to bring your music. Improvisational and informal, you can't deal with an instrument that has too many rules or complexities. You are much more interested in creating unique solos than immersing yourself in music theory. You have a lot of style, and you definitely are one smooth operator. And while you may not play perfectly, no one's going to accuse you of being boring. Your dominant personality characteristic: being very outgoing Your secondary personality characteristic: your flair for the unique and dramatic

I don't liek the sax. D=

~Amy [feels deprived of surveys and mangas]

Have something you wanted to say to me? Then comment.

Something you don't like about me?
Something you hate about me?
Something that I should change?

Anonymous comments enabled. Logging IP address turned off.

Because blogthings has been weird on me lately... and I couldn't access ANYTHING. Now... I CAN. BWHAHAHAHAHAA!

( It Really Is The Cut Of Doom )

~Amy [goes off to do other unproductive things]

Your Mood is a 5

You're feeling okay. Not great, not bad. Your mood is pretty average right now.

You Make a Good First Impression

You probably are making a much better impression than you realize. Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do. If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does. Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image. Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener. The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

It's hard... and I usually am a good listener since I don't have another option. I don't know what to say.

You Belong in LA

Forget living in a dirty, cold city - you'll take the beach instead. Celebrity sightings, trendy restaurants, and clubbing all night are more your thing. And who knows? You might become the next beautiful person the paparazzi stalks!

Yes... dirty cold city does not sound very appealing.

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well. But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

You Should Stay in Shape With a Personal Trainer

You definitely want a better body, but you don't know where to start. And it's all so overwhelming, you tend to lose motivation easily. A personal trainer can help you get the body you desire - even if you have a long way to go!

I'm just lazy xD

You Guy May Be Playing With You!

He could be playing around - or maybe he's just playing games. Either way, your guy is sending you mixed signals... And leaving you confused about his love for you. It's time for you to do some major recon... and see what he's up to.

That makes me feel good... >.> Don't make me paranoid. And I laugh at the screwed up code in there. xP

~Amy [is going to watch Transformers]